Allow Me Some Self Indulgence
once more my thoughts seethe and froth,
surfacing for an instant in magnificence,
crashing down on melodramatic shores of pretentiousness
the tide of my overelaborate ego and self aggrandizement,
rising and falling as my words get longer and longer.
my mind fills with grand thoughts
but what good comes of this,
an education battered and bought.
my feelings are fake i am sure
i have my honesty laid out on the floor.
it creeps around, arid and burnt
sucking deep breaths, choking on what i have learnt.
each new thing that i seek
can i keep offering the other cheek?
as truth vanishes so i must call
out at the night
even if it was ever there at all.